Monday, February 19, 2007

My house

Finally, a house of my own! I thought I would feel like a new person or perhaps have some revelation, or perhaps die of shock....but none of these things happened. I moved in with a paltry few things, unpacked my clothes in over seven months on the road (somewhat!) had a couple of Pure Magic biscuits and watched the setting sun dazzle the spires of a Gurdwara. The feeling slowly sinks in...that I don't have to live with other people, see if they're available, be answerable to them, panic at the last moment cause there's nowhere to go...etc etc.
Obviously it still isn't a home like my previous house was one, but then I've been here only a couple of days. The main lock still throws me, and the local dogs want to know me better, but that's all right. I still have to work out the sun's trajectory vis a vis the house, whether there are any cats about that I can adopt, and what the faultlines are from which ants may one day emerge, but that's all right too.
You win some and you lose some. So while people drift away and I become used to not speaking for days on end, at least I have my house, and I love it.

5 comments:

Purple Lilac said...

Cheers! to peaceful, easy living!

kaypee said...

a cat? what the hell for? no!

Anonymous said...

You're home... yes you are and you're going to be fine.. fill it up boy.. with books and love.. and loads of memories... yoohhooo you have a home! lalalalalallalalla

Beq said...

Thank you anon. Books yes, love? dunno...maybe sunlight. And yeah yooohooo!!! gurgle sniff hehehe

Anonymous said...

nice one. makes me feel gooder about my own than I have in a long time.